In a recent post I said that Nanowrimo was for crazy people. I must amend that. I’ve decided that it’s Nanowrimo that actually makes one crazy. I think each participant becomes several different people at once. There is the person that deals with family and friends. There is the writer that is actually writing. There is the nut job (at least for me) that throws in insane ideas and asks questions that are designed to change everything in the story. The depressed person in the middle of the month that believes they will never finish makes an appearance. Week three either deepens that or brings out a frantic happy person that can hardly stop the words to sleep. We can’t forget each character that’s being written about since they each have a part of the writer in them. Oh and whoever the hell that is that can’t their mind on the project at hand!
In the beginning of November everyone is enthusiastic and idea are flowing freely. It’s an amazing time and can make your story grown and evolve and become rainbows and unicorns. Then, if you win Nanowrimo, you go back and look over what you’ve written and realize you were just as crazy in the beginning as you were in the end, just a different crazy.
For me personally, I feel relieved, happy and slightly let down. My husband was awesome and amazing. He bought me a card that made me almost cry. The other people in my life that are not writers basically gave me a golf clap when I finished. My kids were more happy that they don’t have to eat only Spaghettios, ramen and slow cooker meals anymore. The people in my nano region were like ‘good job, now leave me alone so I can finish.’ Then I looked over what I’d written. Luckily it was more bare bones than awful, but I realized something. I had written half each of two stories. There was just too many things happening for one. That’s not a terrible problem to have I suppose. Except now I have to go write the other halves when I thought I would be getting into editing mode. I feel lucky that I don’t feel the need to throw anything out completely. Also, the habit of writing every chance I get is pretty ingrained now.
If this seems incoherent, well that just proves the point.